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Tuesday, April 27, 2004

Tue, 27 Apr 2004 19:42:53 GMT

Good chance Im gonna be back at Ashestars. Apparently xanga premium has expired. So fuck it, start reading there again haha.

Tuesday, April 27, 2004

Tue, 27 Apr 2004 03:18:26 GMT

SapiensTom: hi hotness
Musicgirl020: hey
SapiensTom: how's life
SapiensTom: how's the man situation?
Musicgirl020: its a situation... thats for sure.
SapiensTom: wow
SapiensTom: sounds interesting
SapiensTom: lol
SapiensTom: fighting maybe?
Musicgirl020: I dont have a man
SapiensTom: oh? I thought you were serious with a dude?
Musicgirl020: nope not me
SapiensTom: hrm
SapiensTom: I dunno, sorry
Musicgirl020: its okay
SapiensTom: I'm slightly retarded
SapiensTom: not literally but
Musicgirl020: heh its fine
SapiensTom: slow
SapiensTom: window-licker
SapiensTom: helmet boy
SapiensTom: I hate my long distance love thing
Musicgirl020: ya ... I hate relationships period.
SapiensTom: I would dig dating you
SapiensTom: just so you know
Musicgirl020: you dont know me...
SapiensTom: I don't need to know you BEFORE I date you do I?
Musicgirl020: how do you know you're interested if you dont know me
Musicgirl020: you only know what I look like
SapiensTom: I think you're chill to talk to online
SapiensTom: and you're local
SapiensTom: jeez barely, I have thought you were pretty from the time I first said hi to you
SapiensTom: and you think I would be bored of saying hi
Musicgirl020: you're not?

blah blah blah

SapiensTom: you must have tons of guys in real life that want you eh?
Musicgirl020: haha

I wasn't kidding about the people from aol/my space. I used to be so nice to them... but now its just like "you saw my pic... ya... so what? You dont know me."

Today sucked. Goodnight.

Sunday, April 25, 2004

Sun, 25 Apr 2004 21:38:16 GMT

Man... From every show I play I learn something new. Last night I played a show with my dads band in Lake Placid... it was a Harley Rally. I don't mind playing their music at all anymore... its freakin fun. It was the lack of singing that used to bother me before I think... but anyway haha... The lesson learned last night was not only for me but for my dad and the guys in the band. By putting an 18 year old female in a band with four men in their late 40's... you're asking for trouble. They developed the responsibility of being bodyguards last night. Man... Biker dudes are pretty scary. Most of them are real nice, but when you've got someone old enough to be your father lookin you up and down while you're playin, wtf do you do?! I left to go to the bathroom, I was gone for seriously less than 2 minutes, and Huey just about sent out a search party. Thats how worried they were. I had only told my dad I was going, so they thought I was MIA.

** Christina, you're Dad SO had my back... hahaha**

As always, after the show, people told us how great we sounded... yada yada... but the cool thing is that they got four new gigs just from last night. Thats pretty insane... four gigs from one night of people hearing them. My dad told me that was the best they'd sounded in his opinion, which made me feel pretty good, seeing that I hear people are now "laughing" at me behind my back. Haha. Hey, I made 80 bucks for three hours of playing. Last weekend I made 60 for two hours of music. I can't complain at all. I'm doing better money wise with a band than I ever have... and I've only played with them twice. AND my voice... is better than its ever been. The tonsils were in the way, now theres nothing holding me back. So people can laugh... it'll be funny to watch when it comes back around on them.

I seriously can't complain about anything right now. I'm so happy with everything thats going on. The friends I have are real friends, no one that would turn around and talk shit when I wasn't there. I'm playin music, might not be my first choice of music, but Im having so much fun doing it, and hell Im getting PAID! Its not very often that someone pays you to have fun. Finals are coming, but I'm prepaired and Im going to do well... I really just couldn't ask for a whole lot more right now.

Friday, April 23, 2004

Fri, 23 Apr 2004 02:35:05 GMT

If I had a dollar for everytime someone from myspace, random people from aol, or people I've just met asked me "do you have a man"... and were surprised when I said no, I would be rakin in the dough. It kinda pisses me off to some extent. It wouldn't be such a big deal if it had just been happening for like a month... but damn. I haven't been with a guy in over a year officially... Brad and I have been on again off again, but never official since then, then the whole other thing... and the kinda sorta thing with Jason, but damn. Im doin somethin wrong here haha. I just haven't found someone Im interested in enough to date I guess, which blows. As for Brad... theres a long story behind it that I could go into detail about, but why bother? The jist of it is, I could be with him and be happy with him... but how long would it last? And if I get with him now... Im probably going to be with him forever. I know myself that we're better off the way we are, hes one of my best friends. He knows more about me than any ONE person I know... even Kel, which is weird to say, but Brads been around a lot longer than Kel and I have been friends. Ya theres a weird story for you. My best friend in the world and I have only been close for a year. haha. How strange. Anyway, its more of a "growing up" issue with Brad. If you honestly want to know more, ask. Im not going to bother posting it for the people who dont want to hear about it.

Okay, just had to get that off my mind and into something somewhat constructive. Ashley loves comments

Thursday, April 22, 2004

Thu, 22 Apr 2004 23:23:57 GMT

And another exciting day is over. My dads band decided not to practice tonight, which didn't hurt my feelings. I'm tired, and unmotivated. I have a test to study for, theory homework to do, and I can't seem to manage to pick up a pen or book. I think its my biggest downfall. I suck at having things done on time, showing up on time, anything that involves a time limit.

Today wasn't bad. My piano class, the teacher wasn't there, so we played scales for what seemed like FOREVER. You played it over and over until you got the fingering right, and for me.. haha it was a while. Chorale, we listened to the concert... lets just say it wasn't as good as I thought. It sounded like a soprano, AT LEAST ONE, was singing high Es and up in her chest voice... it was AWEFUL. The combined pieces sounded good along with the requiem. The others, the aweful sop ruined. I skipped band because I hate Dan, and came home. Went back for flute ensemble, and here I sit now.

I need a good beer drinking night. Im hoping tomorrow will be that night. God I hope so. If anyone wants to tag along, let me know. Im sure it will be fun... Chris is having a party. Those are always fun! Ask Sabrina haha... maybe they'll be another "anything but clothes party" somewhere haha.

I think I'll do that studying now... maybe.

Thursday, April 22, 2004

Thu, 22 Apr 2004 03:05:56 GMT

Well it appears that Im going to be posting here from now on. I have premium here, and the reason I stopped posting here is no longer an issue. So bam. Put me on yo list biatch.

Tonight was the college choral fest concert. I was thinking about joining Cardnal singers next semester, but I hate their music. They're singing music from 1850... I like what we do in college chorale so much better. I realize we DID sing Bach's Requiem this semester, but we also did some amazing fast tempo stuff that made me SO incredably happy to be there and singing. The concert itself was at best decent. Requiem wasn't ready for a perfomance, Soon ah will be done sounded GREAT from where I was standing, as well as Magnificot. The catch to that one is that our accompanist lost her place in the music due to I think a bad page turn. IE we started over. We were like only a page into it, if that... but still, it could have been flawless and it wasn't. Shit happens though. Minor Adjustments sounded great, but I hate the stupid bitch that convinced them I shouldn't be in it because i was in a band. Bad news my fucking dear... bad fucking news. Cardnal singers, very tight, very great, but I absolutely hated the music. St. Lawrence choir, could tell they were well rehearsed, they followed their conductor SO well, but obviously their accompanist wasn't playing loud enough, because they were a half step below the piano. That alone, was enough to make me puke. I can't deal with it, so it ruined it for me. The combined perfomance of the two songs I thought sounded INSANE! So many voices, GOOD voices... I thought that was the best part of the concert.

My day was so hectic. I found myself saying to my mom "I think I need caffeine pills". Basically... there was just no down time. Between work and college I have no time to do anything... Being a music major, its not HORRIBLE because I dont get homework. Im only taking one gen. ed right now, so as you can imagine, I can slack off a lot. THANK GOD. But days like today make me want to put a pensil through my eye ball.

Up 6:45
Class 8am
work 9-11
practice room 11-12
class 12pm
lunch with Sarah at work 1-1:30ish
work 1:30-4:30
home to change and practice a bit more 4:45-5:45
Flute lesson 6-6:30
6:30 rehersal on stage with chorale
7-8 downtime before concert at Hawkins with the group
8-9:30 concert.

That might not sound so bad, but its fucking exhausting. I'm not kidding. Brad came to the concert which was super cool, though I know he hated every second of it. But he gave me a very nice compliment, and it made me feel special

Another long day tomorrow :-\ 10ish till 7:15 class/work wise, then practice with my dads band RIGHT after :( And I have to study for a psych test at some point before friday... haha responsiblity. My middle name :) (or was it Ashley "uncapable of coping with stress, and anything that requires an actual thought prosses or being intelegent" Mero ?)

Wednesday, April 21, 2004

Wed, 21 Apr 2004 03:33:04 GMT

Thinking Im going to be posting here again... check it out.